though i’d like to take on a more sophisticated stance, fuck it i’m tired, haha.
(8) my heart slowed, my heart slooooowed, never to, pick up again…(8) I like that song but i’m not depressed.
Soooo as I struggle with myself and you know, regard things I don’t need to, ignore things that I shouldn’t, and lose sleep all the same…
I wonder what the fuck i’m really doing. I just wanna GO. To Socotra Island booyah!
No, i’m serious, what the fuck am I doing in this small town in this farse of a country. … It can be much worse and I am priveledged. But this life, this kind of life, is all I have known and so my disappointments are measured by that one same gravity. I can’t say you’re worse or better off than me and i’m not gonna try to. I can get to your level, be it up or down and I know that.
I just want to be happier, in a way that is completely controlled by me, self sufficiency is key… fuck the money, the police…really…
adjectivementally or physically inactive; lethargic : we sat around in a torpid state.• (of an animal) dormant, esp. during hibernation.DERIVATIVEStorpidity |tôrˈpiditē| |tɔrˈpɪdədi| |-ˈpɪdɪti| nountorpidly |ˈtɔrpədli| adverbORIGIN late Middle English: from Latin torpidus, from torpere ‘be numb or sluggish.’